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Character Info
Name: Miranda Lotto
Canon: D.Gray-man
Canon Point: (207th Night) While sitting with other Order members in the medical wing of the Black Order Headquarters.
Age: 29
Background: > Miranda Canon History | Expanded CRAU History for A_Facility and Haven
Miranda woke up on Alpha Omega Station, run by Val, an artificial intelligence. “Guests” of Val would endure various experiments and tests that usually caused physical harm or psychological trauma. Every week the “guests” dealt with a new experiment or were transferred to the F3 facility on the station for extended experiments. Miranda died more than once from various experiments, including having a bomb put in her chest that would go off if her heart rate went up to much. She lost her eye during an experiment where nightmares came to life and affected the guests. She dreamt that Allen became a full Noah and stabbed her eye out with one of Road’s candles, only to wake up and find her eye was really gone. Clone sickness ran through the facility and many of the guests died. Miranda lost more than one friend that way. The guests were sent to a desert planet where monsters came out at night trying to eat them. She was attacked by one and bitten, left for dead in the dark.
Then Miranda woke up in Haven, a run-down, formerly abandoned town inside of an invisible barrier where people underwent experiments by scientists they rarely saw. She assumed it was another F3 experiment at first. She offered her services for food, helped work in gardens, and tried to make herself useful during experiments and in-between. Later, she even began taking self-defense lessons to make herself stronger. The housing spiral collapsed into the ground and a spirit that had been trapped beneath it was freed after the death of Doctor Kite, the man who had been in charge of the Haven experiment. Unfortunately, experiments continued to happen, run by new scientists, and more people were disappearing and no one knew why it had become so frequent. Then the scientists declared they would be putting everyone into “cold sleep” and the people in Haven had no way of getting out of it.
Being on Alpha Omega forced Miranda to step out of the shadow of her friends because she came to realize that they could not do for her there what she could do for herself. No matter how much she loved them and they loved her, the experiments Val forced them through could isolate them, or even pit them against each other. She would keep going because she wouldn’t be weak or expect her friends to carry her weight. Not that she stopped being insecure entirely, or feeling as if even tiny things were her fault, but she also knew that her guilt wouldn’t help anyone, so she kept it more to herself.
Being in Haven forced her to face the fact that she is a clone of the “original” Miranda (of whatever universe they took that Miranda from). She was no longer in a place where everyone was the same as her and had to accept the possibility that she might even have to face the person she was a copy of. Being on Alpha Omega really did make her a stronger person and while her sense of identity was shaken by being in a place with what she thought were the “originals” of their worlds, it also made her accept that she wasn’t less for being a clone. The fact that she felt she could contribute in Haven more than she could on Alpha Omega helped her overcome those insecurities. She had something to offer. It wasn’t much, but in Haven everyone was needed to do their part to survive and make things easier on each other.
Personality:
Miranda has the lowest self-esteem of almost anyone ever. Because of constant failings at everything she does, she believes she's not good for anything and that she'll only make things worse or fail by trying (she was fired from one hundred jobs in her hometown). Even so, Miranda never gives up, because she believes that there must be at least one thing in the world that she can be good at, some person that she can prove herself to and have them be happy that she was there. If she can’t be good at anything, at least she can keep trying because otherwise she has nothing left for her.
After meeting Lenalee and Allen, she accepts being an Exorcist as her calling and goes to train at Headquarters because she wants to make a difference and prove to herself that she is more than who she once thought she was. Miranda never wants to go back to being that woman who hid away in her home drinking away her sorrows and growing steadily more jaded and bitter at the world. She is an Exorcist, she has purpose, and she has friends. These are the things that drive her—her strengths and her weaknesses.
Miranda's Innocence, Time Record, takes a large toll on her body, and her emotions, because she uses it whenever she can to take away the injuries of those around her during a fight, especially her fellow Exorcists, but when she deactivates it, all of their injuries come back, on top of the ones they have newly received. She knows that she is essentially healing them so they can continue to fight and get hurt even more, which makes her wonder if her Innocence is a blessing or a curse at times. Miranda can't stand the thought of letting them be injured that way, not only because she cares about them, but also because she sees it as a failure on her part that her Innocence isn't powerful enough to take away their injuries permanently. To her, it makes her more useless and a less important part of the team. It's even worse if the person or people will die once she deactivates her Innocence, because she blames herself for their deaths, even though she didn’t cause their wounds.
Still, Miranda doesn’t believe there are many things that she is good at, so she will strive to do her best with what options are open to her. If she can protect her friends in whatever minor way she can, she will do so. If she has to put her life in danger to achieve a goal that will benefit them or some innocent person, she will. She’s a giver. Willing to keep giving and giving of herself even when she doesn’t believe that she has much worth giving.
She apologizes often for the slightest of mistakes and social missteps. She can be pessimistic and negative, but often turns these negative moods onto herself rather than on anyone else. Miranda is also a chronic worrier. It's like an anxiety disorder, because she gets herself really worked up worrying over every little thing she says or does and also about the people she cares about. But it doesn’t stop her from wanting to believe in the good in others, to the point she is more likely to trust a stranger she just met than to assume they are a danger to her, despite the fact she knows that in her world anyone could be an Akuma out to kill her.
In the time since she became an Exorcist, Miranda has come a long way from the self-loathing, bitter, lonely, miserable person she once was. She is more assertive, willing to stand up for herself and express her feelings, and doesn’t fall into dark moods as much as she used to, but she doesn’t see for herself just how far she’s come. The fact that she leaves her hands bare at times now when months ago her palms were constantly covered (and months before that she never would have gone without gloves covering them entirely), shows she’s less self-conscious and more comfortable in her own body. Any mention of something like this by someone else will send her into a full-on stammering fluster. She’s still clumsy and erratic and goes off on strange tangents in her thoughts without meaning to, but she is changing. It’s a work in progress and Miranda isn’t afraid to put in the effort.
Being on Alpha Omega forced Miranda to step out of the shadow of her friends because she came to realize that they could not do for her there what she could do for herself. No matter how much she loved them and they loved her, the experiments Val forced them through could isolate them, or even pit them against each other. They couldn’t trust that Val would not make them harm each other without their consent. Miranda has never known how to give up, even when she wanted to the most, so that worked in her favor. She would keep going because she wouldn’t be weak or expect her friends to carry her weight.
The experiences didn’t break her, but it did toughen Miranda up more. She became somewhat jaded to it, not unlike how she felt after being trapped on the same day for over a month in her hometown. But unlike then, she knew she had other people that she could turn to and who she wanted to depend on her in turn, so she stepped up, became more proactive and less of her shy, unsure self. Not that she stopped being insecure entirely or feeling as if even tiny things were her fault, but she also knew that her guilt wouldn’t help anyone, so she kept it more to herself. Everyone had enough to deal with without her falling apart on them. Even losing her eye only made her more determined. It hurt, and the nightmare that caused it lingered, but she didn’t want to be afraid of Allen, or let the injury handicap her. She looked to Lavi for help on how to retrain herself on seeing through only one eye. She learned, she moved on, and she did not let it turn her into the shell of a woman from some undetermined future. No matter what, she would never let herself become that person.
Being in Haven forced her to face the fact that she is a clone of the “original” Miranda. That whether or not she has Miranda’s soul, her body was manufactured by Val. She was no longer in a place where everyone was the same and had to accept the possibility that she might even have to face the person she was a copy of. There was fear and anxiety, but she soldiered on. Being on Alpha Omega really did make her a stronger person and while her sense of identity was shaken by being in a place with what she thought were the “originals” of their worlds, it also made her accept that she wasn’t less for being a clone. She has Miranda’s memories. Her heart and soul. That made her Miranda. The fact that she felt she could contribute in Haven more than she could on Alpha Omega helped her overcome those insecurities. She had something to offer. It wasn’t much, but in Haven everyone was needed to do their part to survive and make things easier on each other. Still, Miranda’s self-esteem may not be worse for wear but it’s not exactly improved a great deal either. She still sees herself as a work in progress, someone striving to be the person she can be proud of, to the point she doesn’t recognize how much she’s grown in the years since she first became an Exorcist.
Powers:
For the most part Miranda is a normal human with no discernible skills or abilities. She has very average skills in self-defense, in that she can hold her own, particular if she has some blunt object to protect herself, but if pressed too much, she won’t hold up for long. What makes her different from the average person is that she is an Accommodator for Innocence, a special tool or weapon in her world that few people are capable of using.
Stamina -- Time Record eats up her energy, but Miranda can go days without rest, and still have it activated. She’s shown using pure strength of will to keep her barriers strong against Akuma, Noah, and even the Earl himself. She will keep it activated well beyond the limits of her own energy if necessary and has gone 10 days before without sleeping.
Inventory:
Time Record -- This is Miranda's Innocence which looks like a huge disc with glowing lines that can be strapped to her arm or held suspended in the air between her hands, and it has the power to stop time, rewind it, and to "turn back the clock" on people and objects. She can take away a person's injures and keep them locked inside of Time Record, or return an object to its prime condition, but all of these effects end once Time Record is deactivated (this technique is called “Time Recovery”). If someone’s “time” is kept inside of Time Record, Miranda is constantly aware of them—if they are injured again, she knows, if they die, she knows. She is also capable of creating barriers/shields in which time is effectively negated for anyone or anything within her area of effect and prevents anything from entering or existing the shield unless Miranda’s will allows it, while still being aware of what goes on outside of the barrier (this is called “Time Out”). Miranda's Innocence is an Equipment Type, but also a support/defense type, since she cannot use it offensively. Because Miranda’s power is not permanent, she cannot stop death. Any fatal injuries that a person suffers while under her Innocence’s power will return to them once she turns it off. She has only used these two techniques simultaneously once (at a huge drain to herself) and has yet to figure out how to do so again.
Satchel -- Miranda’s bag that she carries everywhere with her. She keeps Time Record, first aid supplies, a bit of candy, some rations, and other basic supplies in it.
Golem -- An Exorcist golem is a flying radio and video transmitter that is keyed into a specific Exorcist and does what they order it to. It looks very much like a bat.
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chamilia) and Exxis (vicissitudinal) (currently apping Mara (shemara)Character Info
Name: Miranda Lotto
Canon: D.Gray-man
Canon Point: (207th Night) While sitting with other Order members in the medical wing of the Black Order Headquarters.
Age: 29
Background: > Miranda Canon History | Expanded CRAU History for A_Facility and Haven
Miranda woke up on Alpha Omega Station, run by Val, an artificial intelligence. “Guests” of Val would endure various experiments and tests that usually caused physical harm or psychological trauma. Every week the “guests” dealt with a new experiment or were transferred to the F3 facility on the station for extended experiments. Miranda died more than once from various experiments, including having a bomb put in her chest that would go off if her heart rate went up to much. She lost her eye during an experiment where nightmares came to life and affected the guests. She dreamt that Allen became a full Noah and stabbed her eye out with one of Road’s candles, only to wake up and find her eye was really gone. Clone sickness ran through the facility and many of the guests died. Miranda lost more than one friend that way. The guests were sent to a desert planet where monsters came out at night trying to eat them. She was attacked by one and bitten, left for dead in the dark.
Then Miranda woke up in Haven, a run-down, formerly abandoned town inside of an invisible barrier where people underwent experiments by scientists they rarely saw. She assumed it was another F3 experiment at first. She offered her services for food, helped work in gardens, and tried to make herself useful during experiments and in-between. Later, she even began taking self-defense lessons to make herself stronger. The housing spiral collapsed into the ground and a spirit that had been trapped beneath it was freed after the death of Doctor Kite, the man who had been in charge of the Haven experiment. Unfortunately, experiments continued to happen, run by new scientists, and more people were disappearing and no one knew why it had become so frequent. Then the scientists declared they would be putting everyone into “cold sleep” and the people in Haven had no way of getting out of it.
Being on Alpha Omega forced Miranda to step out of the shadow of her friends because she came to realize that they could not do for her there what she could do for herself. No matter how much she loved them and they loved her, the experiments Val forced them through could isolate them, or even pit them against each other. She would keep going because she wouldn’t be weak or expect her friends to carry her weight. Not that she stopped being insecure entirely, or feeling as if even tiny things were her fault, but she also knew that her guilt wouldn’t help anyone, so she kept it more to herself.
Being in Haven forced her to face the fact that she is a clone of the “original” Miranda (of whatever universe they took that Miranda from). She was no longer in a place where everyone was the same as her and had to accept the possibility that she might even have to face the person she was a copy of. Being on Alpha Omega really did make her a stronger person and while her sense of identity was shaken by being in a place with what she thought were the “originals” of their worlds, it also made her accept that she wasn’t less for being a clone. The fact that she felt she could contribute in Haven more than she could on Alpha Omega helped her overcome those insecurities. She had something to offer. It wasn’t much, but in Haven everyone was needed to do their part to survive and make things easier on each other.
Personality:
Miranda has the lowest self-esteem of almost anyone ever. Because of constant failings at everything she does, she believes she's not good for anything and that she'll only make things worse or fail by trying (she was fired from one hundred jobs in her hometown). Even so, Miranda never gives up, because she believes that there must be at least one thing in the world that she can be good at, some person that she can prove herself to and have them be happy that she was there. If she can’t be good at anything, at least she can keep trying because otherwise she has nothing left for her.
After meeting Lenalee and Allen, she accepts being an Exorcist as her calling and goes to train at Headquarters because she wants to make a difference and prove to herself that she is more than who she once thought she was. Miranda never wants to go back to being that woman who hid away in her home drinking away her sorrows and growing steadily more jaded and bitter at the world. She is an Exorcist, she has purpose, and she has friends. These are the things that drive her—her strengths and her weaknesses.
Miranda's Innocence, Time Record, takes a large toll on her body, and her emotions, because she uses it whenever she can to take away the injuries of those around her during a fight, especially her fellow Exorcists, but when she deactivates it, all of their injuries come back, on top of the ones they have newly received. She knows that she is essentially healing them so they can continue to fight and get hurt even more, which makes her wonder if her Innocence is a blessing or a curse at times. Miranda can't stand the thought of letting them be injured that way, not only because she cares about them, but also because she sees it as a failure on her part that her Innocence isn't powerful enough to take away their injuries permanently. To her, it makes her more useless and a less important part of the team. It's even worse if the person or people will die once she deactivates her Innocence, because she blames herself for their deaths, even though she didn’t cause their wounds.
Still, Miranda doesn’t believe there are many things that she is good at, so she will strive to do her best with what options are open to her. If she can protect her friends in whatever minor way she can, she will do so. If she has to put her life in danger to achieve a goal that will benefit them or some innocent person, she will. She’s a giver. Willing to keep giving and giving of herself even when she doesn’t believe that she has much worth giving.
She apologizes often for the slightest of mistakes and social missteps. She can be pessimistic and negative, but often turns these negative moods onto herself rather than on anyone else. Miranda is also a chronic worrier. It's like an anxiety disorder, because she gets herself really worked up worrying over every little thing she says or does and also about the people she cares about. But it doesn’t stop her from wanting to believe in the good in others, to the point she is more likely to trust a stranger she just met than to assume they are a danger to her, despite the fact she knows that in her world anyone could be an Akuma out to kill her.
In the time since she became an Exorcist, Miranda has come a long way from the self-loathing, bitter, lonely, miserable person she once was. She is more assertive, willing to stand up for herself and express her feelings, and doesn’t fall into dark moods as much as she used to, but she doesn’t see for herself just how far she’s come. The fact that she leaves her hands bare at times now when months ago her palms were constantly covered (and months before that she never would have gone without gloves covering them entirely), shows she’s less self-conscious and more comfortable in her own body. Any mention of something like this by someone else will send her into a full-on stammering fluster. She’s still clumsy and erratic and goes off on strange tangents in her thoughts without meaning to, but she is changing. It’s a work in progress and Miranda isn’t afraid to put in the effort.
Being on Alpha Omega forced Miranda to step out of the shadow of her friends because she came to realize that they could not do for her there what she could do for herself. No matter how much she loved them and they loved her, the experiments Val forced them through could isolate them, or even pit them against each other. They couldn’t trust that Val would not make them harm each other without their consent. Miranda has never known how to give up, even when she wanted to the most, so that worked in her favor. She would keep going because she wouldn’t be weak or expect her friends to carry her weight.
The experiences didn’t break her, but it did toughen Miranda up more. She became somewhat jaded to it, not unlike how she felt after being trapped on the same day for over a month in her hometown. But unlike then, she knew she had other people that she could turn to and who she wanted to depend on her in turn, so she stepped up, became more proactive and less of her shy, unsure self. Not that she stopped being insecure entirely or feeling as if even tiny things were her fault, but she also knew that her guilt wouldn’t help anyone, so she kept it more to herself. Everyone had enough to deal with without her falling apart on them. Even losing her eye only made her more determined. It hurt, and the nightmare that caused it lingered, but she didn’t want to be afraid of Allen, or let the injury handicap her. She looked to Lavi for help on how to retrain herself on seeing through only one eye. She learned, she moved on, and she did not let it turn her into the shell of a woman from some undetermined future. No matter what, she would never let herself become that person.
Being in Haven forced her to face the fact that she is a clone of the “original” Miranda. That whether or not she has Miranda’s soul, her body was manufactured by Val. She was no longer in a place where everyone was the same and had to accept the possibility that she might even have to face the person she was a copy of. There was fear and anxiety, but she soldiered on. Being on Alpha Omega really did make her a stronger person and while her sense of identity was shaken by being in a place with what she thought were the “originals” of their worlds, it also made her accept that she wasn’t less for being a clone. She has Miranda’s memories. Her heart and soul. That made her Miranda. The fact that she felt she could contribute in Haven more than she could on Alpha Omega helped her overcome those insecurities. She had something to offer. It wasn’t much, but in Haven everyone was needed to do their part to survive and make things easier on each other. Still, Miranda’s self-esteem may not be worse for wear but it’s not exactly improved a great deal either. She still sees herself as a work in progress, someone striving to be the person she can be proud of, to the point she doesn’t recognize how much she’s grown in the years since she first became an Exorcist.
Powers:
For the most part Miranda is a normal human with no discernible skills or abilities. She has very average skills in self-defense, in that she can hold her own, particular if she has some blunt object to protect herself, but if pressed too much, she won’t hold up for long. What makes her different from the average person is that she is an Accommodator for Innocence, a special tool or weapon in her world that few people are capable of using.
Stamina -- Time Record eats up her energy, but Miranda can go days without rest, and still have it activated. She’s shown using pure strength of will to keep her barriers strong against Akuma, Noah, and even the Earl himself. She will keep it activated well beyond the limits of her own energy if necessary and has gone 10 days before without sleeping.
Inventory:
Time Record -- This is Miranda's Innocence which looks like a huge disc with glowing lines that can be strapped to her arm or held suspended in the air between her hands, and it has the power to stop time, rewind it, and to "turn back the clock" on people and objects. She can take away a person's injures and keep them locked inside of Time Record, or return an object to its prime condition, but all of these effects end once Time Record is deactivated (this technique is called “Time Recovery”). If someone’s “time” is kept inside of Time Record, Miranda is constantly aware of them—if they are injured again, she knows, if they die, she knows. She is also capable of creating barriers/shields in which time is effectively negated for anyone or anything within her area of effect and prevents anything from entering or existing the shield unless Miranda’s will allows it, while still being aware of what goes on outside of the barrier (this is called “Time Out”). Miranda's Innocence is an Equipment Type, but also a support/defense type, since she cannot use it offensively. Because Miranda’s power is not permanent, she cannot stop death. Any fatal injuries that a person suffers while under her Innocence’s power will return to them once she turns it off. She has only used these two techniques simultaneously once (at a huge drain to herself) and has yet to figure out how to do so again.
Satchel -- Miranda’s bag that she carries everywhere with her. She keeps Time Record, first aid supplies, a bit of candy, some rations, and other basic supplies in it.
Golem -- An Exorcist golem is a flying radio and video transmitter that is keyed into a specific Exorcist and does what they order it to. It looks very much like a bat.
Samples:
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REVISIONS OF CRAU INFLUENCE
She will go back to being a bit less assertive of her own boundaries, more shy, prone into reactive anxious worrying, and more easily frightened and prone to apologizing for everything, as her younger self. She will remember that some dark things happened and they Weren't Good, but not exactly all of it. Particularly, forgetting the memory of the dream and how she lost her eye, but remembering that she lost it due to something that occurred on the space station. Also forgetting how many times she watched people die and be revived, but remembering perhaps that coming and going from the station or Haven wasn't unusual. Forgetting about the event where she had her memories altered in Haven as well.
Softening things a lot around the edges like an old, distant memory so she doesn't have clear details, just remembers Something Happened and won't think too hard about that not remembering because it's not like she lost them, they're faded and hazy, as least as she views it.